Well it has been a while since I posted in my little blog ...been kind of busy because of the holidays. Now I am back. HI :)

Anyway we had a big scare last night because I was having some major cramping and a bit of spotting but I called my OB-GYN after hours and he said that it didn't sound like too much of a concern. We were thankful for that, that would have been one SUCKY Christmas present.

Well I made out like a bandit this holiday. I got perfume and two pairs of stretch pants (which I will need) and two sweaters...I also got a big Stitch Doll (Lilo & Stitch is my favorite cartoon) and a whole bunch of other stuff. :)

The best present of all is our little runt being ok. :)

Well damn, I had this post all written out and for some strange reason it just went away, *poof*! As I was saying....

Here I sit eating the breakfast of champions, Cheesy Sour Cream&Onion Cheez-Its. Normaly I would turn my nose up at such a breakfast, but they sounded so good, and I am out of cereal. At least I am drinking orange juice. Heh.

I am feeling a bit better today. The pain in my left side is subsiding some and I am very glad of that. It did hurt. I spoke to Danny briefly on the phone today and he said he was feeling much better. I was glad to hear it. I worry about him. I lost my signal on our cell phone and we could not finish our converstation, which was unfortunate. I am always glad to hear from him, whether he wakes me up or not.

Well I am going to go chow down on some more Cheez-Its. Maybe I will write more later. Love, Peace & Chicken Grease.

Well it's good news! I called my doctor and he said if it feels like a pulled muscle, it usually IS a pulled muscle, so NO WORRIES! It made me so happy to hear that. I guess it's like that analogy I heard on TV, "When you hear hooves, think Horses, not ZEBRAS."

I am worried about my dear husband though, He is very ill lately. He is supposed to get a test for being Diabetic here soon, but I can't get him into the Doctor until after the new year. He has some awful bronchitis and he said today that his heart races like he has had too much caffiene all the time. I worry so much about him. I don't ever want to lose him. I always want my little one to be with his/her Daddy. Well I am going to go pour myself another glass of milk. I am craving it again lately. Love, Peace, & Chicken Grease.

Alright, I think I have a legitimate concern. On the left side of my body it feels like I have pulled something in my abdomen. I wouldn't be worried, only that it has been tight and achy for a few days. What should I do? I am thinking that I should call my doctor. Even if there isn't anything wrong, at least he will be able to put my mind at ease.

I wonder if I am just being paranoid again. I know that being this far along some things have to bend and stretch but I didn't know they had to be so painful when they did it.

I really do hope everything is alright. I will be praying double time today. Maybe you should, too.

I wonder lately if anyone has ever been as paranoid as I am. Every time I have the slightest cramp or pain in my stomach, I am horrified. I don't want to lose my baby. I know that this is all probably stemming from Hormone Hell(the state of being I am in right now) but still, I worry.

I did a little last minute Christmas shopping today. I had to get something else for the Father-To-Be, I only had him a couple of things. Not very expensive things either. But I can't afford much for him. Besides, we would rather our nieces & nephews, Allison, Leah, Jacob & Jonahthan have a fantastic Christmas this year, because this may be the last one they see from us for a while. We will have other financial worries when the baby gets here.

Well I am dead dog tired, because even though I only did a LITTLE shopping, the girls did a lot. The girls being my friends, Alicia & Cassie. They are who I went with. I am going to bed, even sitting in a wheelchair for three hours can be tiresome. Not to mention I spent four hours at a lady's wake today. It's so sad that she died. Love, Peace, & Chicken Grease.

Ok, here is the deal. I read in some magazine/book/newsletter/etc. in my doctor's office to start using baby products to get your pets and other children associated with the smell of a baby. Well I don't have any other children living here, but we do have a cat, Samson, who is spoiled rotten. He is a big, big baby and does not even like when I am holding Stuffed animals. So I figured that this would be a fantabulous idea. (Fantabulous is a word my husband made up.)

Well I went out and bought a pump of Baby Magic Baby Lotion, and it smells exquisite, just like a little baby should smell, and it softens skin remarkably. I love it, and Samson seems to like the taste of it, anyway. (Hope he does not try to eat my baby)

I also bought some Baby Shampoo, it smelled so good, so sweet and fresh, that I decided to use some on my hair in my bath tonight. I have one thing to say.


TEAR FREE MY TUSHIE!!!


Oh, My, God! I got some of that stuff in my eyes and I thought that I was going to have to pluck them OUT. I am dead serious. How can people use this on their baby's heads? JEEZY CREEZY...it was awful! I don't know if it only works like that on adults and it is fine for a baby or if it is just because I bought the Kroger brand and not Johnson & Johnson. However I looked at the ingredients and they all seem to be pretty much the same. I don't know what to think, there is no way I am going to let my baby get that crap in it's little eyes, but I don't know of any alternatives to Baby Shampoo off hand. Maybe I can get some of the REALLY good stuff...Like Aveeno/Gerber baby shampoo, and just try to make it last for baby's bathtime. Well, my eyes are still stinging. I'm going to go flush them out with some water. Love, Peace, & Chicken Grease.

Well it's almost time for a bath & for bed. I am really achy today so I can't wait. I am kinda bitchy towards Danny (my husband) and our cat, Samson, lately. I don't mean to be but it seems like the both of them grate my nerves more than usual. I suppose that's normal with hormone fluctuations.

This house is a mess again. I am still not really physically able to clean it up and I have recieved little to no help from the dear old Husband. He DOES cook, but I wish I could find a way to make him help me keep it CLEAN. And I dont mean JUST the dishes or the kitchen. I mean ALL of it. I know one thing for sure this house WILL be CLEAN before the baby comes - even if I have to hire Merry Maids. I have his family threatening to call CPS on me, if you can believe that. You should have seen some of the Pig Stys I lived in as a kid. Compared to those places this house is a mansion. CPS never tried to take me away. Even though I wish they would have sometimes. Heh.

Well I suppose I am just venting and being hormonal, but it helps. I am going to go and take my bath now and relax some. That's it for now.

Well it is late and I could not sleep so I decided to write a bit more here in the baby blog. That sounds so odd, rolling off my tongue, baby blog. Heck, the word baby sounds odd. I never thought that I would see this day.

Back in '93 I gave birth to a son. I was only fifteen at the time and I suppose I would not have made much of a mother. I desperately wished to keep my son-but due to circumstances beyond my control I had to place him for adoption. I won't go into any more detail because contrary to what most people think I haven't 'gotten over it'. It is still VERY painful and well - it will always be.

Since I gave birth to my son I have been pregnant three times, this one making four. I had two miscarriages and an ectopic (tubal) preganancy and never thought I would be able carry a baby to term. Well I have made it two months here - and thats FANTASTIC. One or two more months and I am out of the woods.

I recently had an accident back in July which may cause this pregnancy to be of great difficulty (well all pregnancies are a great difficulty) - but even more so - I was hit by a car and broke my clavicle, three ribs, collapsed a lung, fractured my back & pelvis in two places, broke my shin, shattered both my ankles, broke two fingers, got nerve damage in my right hand, & had multiple stitches and a concussion. I was in the hospital for a month in a drug-induced coma and in a rehab hospital for two months thereafter. I still cant stand up for long periods and the fractures in my pelvis are still healing. I pray to God that I can do this-I know that he will give me the strength. As they say, every time God closes a door he opens a window.

It's odd how much you can love someone who isn't even born yet. I love this baby with all of my heart and hope the best for it now and in the future. Every time I look at it's father my love grows more for him, too, and I will always cherish him for giving me this special gift. This year should be one heck of a Christmas!

Well a special thanks goes to my husband for creating this blog for us, without him it wouldn't even be here. We found out we were pregnant on the November 20, using a four dollar pregnancy test from the Family Dollar. Oh, my, our kid will think that we are cheap, for we have saved the original test & box to place in our baby book.

I began to spot a little the night that we found out and I went to the Emergency Room. I am high risk and we were fearful that we may lose our baby. We lost one before this and it was quite painful for the two of us. Fortunately the spotting was very minimal and we were doing just fine, baby & me. We did get to find out FOR SURE that we were pregnant through bloodwork & another urine test at the hospital. I didn't like the original Dr. that we went with, he was in a big hurry to leave, and being high risk we had a LOT of concerns, ones that he failed to address. So I found another Dr. - My friend Alicia's Dr. He delivered her son Braydon, who I call my nephew, and it pisses my husband off. Oh well, who cares what he thinks, right? This Dr. is a VERY good Dr. -His name is Dr. Youkilis, and he gave me an Ultra Sound the FIRST day I was there to do away with any fears of miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy. So far - So good.

The baby is growing very fast now, this is the stage that it will hit a growth spurt, forming arms & legs. We still don't know what it is yet, it is too early to tell, but we are DYING to know. We should be finding out sometime in February or March, when I am a little further along than 8 1/2 weeks. It usually is certain in the fourth month, which will be late February. That's all I have for today. Love, Peace, & Chicken Grease. Hmmmm..now I am craving chicken.