Only Ten days and 23 hours until Christmas. We're going cheap on everyone this year except the kids. Money seems to be super tight right now and I have no idea why. Mom has a great job making pretty decent money and we haven't had a house payment in quite a few months; we paid ahead so we wouldn't have to worry about it for awhile. I have no idea how we managed to get together that kind of cash. I'm kind of bummed out about the money thing. So as I said before and if you are reading this on the internet and expect to get a gift from us this year you can lower your expectations because while you will get a gift from us it will be cheap and shoddy. Well, maybe not shoddy but it will certainly be cheap.
There's a huge lay off scheduled for the beginning of the year at work. I'm worried that I might not have much longer at General Electric. I've been out there over twenty years; all my adult life. Looking for a new job is not something I am looking forward to. I have no marketable skills and I am actually kind of frightened right now. Thank God, Mom has her job. Mom says I need to go to CNA school so if I do get laid off I will have something I can do to make some money until I can get a job with pay comparable to what I make now. Mom wants to go to school to become a registered nurse and they get paid great money but it's hard getting into nursing school and that takes three to four years. I would like to go get some kind of training in computers. Maybe become an IT guy or something. Right now I just don't know. There won't be any factory out there that will even come close to paying me what I earn at General Electric. Mom has access to health insurance where she works so that will be a worry off of my back at least. Maybe I can get a job where I can work in a nice office atmosphere instead of in a hot loud smelly dirty factory. I would like that but I still worry about the money.
As a result of the lay off I am having to change jobs. I thought I was going to get one similar to the one I have now, only easier. I didn't get it. Instead I got stuck doing a job I have never done before. That bummed me out as well. I'm just in a regular bummed out mood right now. I am thankful for my two wonderful children but I want to be able to provide for those two wonderful children like they deserve. I'm sorry if this all sounds like so much of a downer during the holiday season but that's the way I feel right now.
There are the occasional day when I will be talking to Becca and I will just marvel at how fast she is growing up. Today for instance; we were at KFC enjoying the buffet and we were talking and she seemed to be able to carry on a conversation even better than she did yesterday. I fear she's going to grow up overnight on me. And Grant, he just gets bigger and bigger every day. It won't be long until I can say the same thing about him.
I know it's been awhile since I last posted but I have been busy on the weekends with Becca and Grant. It's like trying to do two full time jobs at once. I will be feeding Grant and Becca will tell me she wants a drink and of course she wants it right this very second. Just one of then by their self is okay but if you put both of them together it's a real chore. Even more so because I am supposed to be keeping the house in order while Mom is at work and I have failed in that regard. Mom got kind of angry at me the other day regarding this matter. I knew I wasn't doing the best job in the world but I did think that I was making steady, if slow improvement. Oh well, what are you going to do?
We plan on going to Lexington tomorrow to do a small bit of Christmas shopping. We are going to get stuff for Auntie Mary and Deseray. Becca will be going to the Dollar Tree to do all of her Christmas shopping. Then we have a parent-teacher conference with Becca's teacher. We will be doing everyone else next Friday. That will be quite the challenge.
I need to get in bed now. Daddy loves Rebecca & Grant!